one day your driving west on the highway
while the city's dissolving behind you
and you feel like your going
further than you knowing
further than the days that define you
ah ah
ah ah
ah aha ha
and from somewhere a song it finds you
from a place you cant trace it finds you
so you bring it along forward and strong
not giving a damn what's behind you
and one day my city goes black as night
and where all scrambling around for light
while others are digging for where they belong
you light the room with a song
ah ah ah
ah aha ha
and soon nights lenthing into years
and rooms become crowded with fears
but your perched on the edge
of a ledge sparkling blue
where the days open to let you pass through
and one day my city goes black as night
and where all scrambling around for light
while others are digging for where they belong
you light the room with a song
ah ah ah
ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah ah
ah aha ha
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ah aha ah
aha ah
ah aha ha ah ah ah ah ah
and one day my city goes black as night
and where all scrambling around for light
while others are digging for where they belong
you light the room with a song
you light the room with a song
and doors appear where there use to be walls
and open to rooms you never knew before
and you think to yourself while your humming along
this is where i belong
this is where i belong
BY the well
you are there
the devil in your dark curly hair
and you dance
with his flame
oh Mary do you hear me call your name
Blazing fire
of his soul
we live and then we leave this world alone
dry your eyes/ for a while
its not how we die but how we love and how we try
Im here by /the weeping moon
Where else would /a man pray?
I live by /the weeping moon /please don’t look away
Mary see
we are the same
how does it feel when i say your name
Mary your eyes
eyes of shame
and all night long i sing your name
Im here by /the weeping moon
Where else would/ a man pray?
I live by/ the weeping moon/ please don’t look away
and my heart aches for your gaze
and your love separates the nights form days
And I reach for you /Do you hear me say
Mary/ im no longer /the man I was/And you /must become/ my messenger of love
You /the woman I love /Mary oh Mary
(Mary' part)
i will be your messenger of love
i will be your messenger of love
you are everywhere/ i've ever been
the scent of you is braided to my skin
but im alone /and im afraid
and my hearts as wild as the blackest waves
the people/ are sick/ with jealousy
they've curse you to your grave and now their cursing me
a whore - they call me a whore
i am drowning in a sea of hypocrisy
Oh Mary we have spoken of these kinds of crimes/If the world can’t steal your heart
It steals your peace of mind/Let me hold you in dark times /Forgiveness will be our messenger of love
(Mary)
forgiveness will be our messenger of love
Im here by /the weeping moon
Where else would/ a man pray?
I live by /the weeping moon /please don’t /look away
Im here by/ the weeping moon
Where else would /a man pray?
I live by/ the weeping moon /please don’t /look away
is it that your eyes open the closed roads of my mind
What is it about us
is it that our lives run parallel somewhere in time
Who is this man
his body
lies over me
riding my mood
holds on
long as he needs
snow falls on the middle
of my burning
need to be and suddenly
were drenched
by the tear of innocence
what is it about us
do you like
like I do
do you die like I do
Your silence finds me
it reminds me
let them hate me
they love to
Oh I say everyday yeah I love my self
but he knows that’s just the pretty way
to say I feel so alone
what is it about us
What is it about us
Who is this man
his body
lies over me
riding my mood
holds on
long as he needs
snow falls on the middle
of my burning
need to be and suddenly
were drenched
by the tear of innocence
what is it about us
what is it about us
what is it about us oh
what is it about us
is it that your eyes open the closed roads of my mind
there's a longing that's calling me to come /like a hand softly rhythming
on a drum/ come look at me now
see I have /
just been born /and for a long/ sweet moment
nothing can go wrong
and the trees are my witness/ and the birds over head
I am tied to by some/ luminous thread
and I watch them love this world they fly
as though it is there last chance /
to ever be alive
is there anything more beautiful/ this kind of love/
like the way they glide so high/cross the horizon
while the river flows and your soul knows/
every song they sing
oh have you ever gone crazy
for beautiful things
crazy crazy crazy
crazy crazy crazy
there's a melody /in a tree singing its heart out to me
oh little star shine /little friend of mine
little song oh how I long to be like you
you sing through this world you fly
as though it is your last chance to ever be alive/
is there anything more beautiful/ this kind of love/
like the way they glide so high/cross the horizon
while the river flows and your soul knows/
every song they sing
oh have you ever gone crazy
for beautiful things
crazy crazy crazy
crazy crazy crazy
la de la da da la da de la da da
la de la da da la da de la da da
la de la da lda la da lde la da da
la de la da da la da de
crazy crazy crazy
crazy crazy crazy
oh the tragedy
came to me many times before
so many
wild and fantastical things he swore
but the trees are my witness/ and the birds overhead /I am tied to/ by some luminous thread/ and I watch
them/ love this world they fly/ as though it is there last chance/ to ever be alive
is there anything more beautiful/ this kind of love/
like the way they glide so high/cross the horizon
while the river flows and your soul knows/
every song they sing
oh have you ever gone crazy
for beautiful things
hey sweet mama/ my husband said
There’d be no shining sun above my head
There’d be no where to run no where to rest
if you don't write that song tonight
and if you don't rise as the moon climbs
the night entangled trees
There’d be no dreamer left in me
No tones that melt my heart to tears he said to me
He knows/ He knows / He knows/ He knows
how i dance across the indigo darkness
Yes He knows/ He knows / He knows/ He knows
how i dance across the indigo darkness
Hey sweet mama /my husband said
There’d be no toasty honey biscuits in bed
there’d be no fires to warm the chilled November air
if you don't write that song tonight
He knows/ He knows / He knows/ He knows
how i dance across the indigo darkness
Yes He knows/ He knows / He knows/ He knows
how i dance across the indigo darkness
Cause in my world/ when the poet sings
bon fires burn and the sky turns tangerine
and its the sweetest song one could ever bring
And all of us know we know enough to let it in Yeah
hey sweet mama/ my husband said
These precious jewels that crown my heart he said/
would no longer shine for him
Anymore
He knows/ He knows / He knows/ He knows
how i dance across the indigo darkness
Yes He knows/ He knows / He knows/ He knows
how i dance across the indigo darkness
Yes He knows / He knows / He knows/ He knows
the secret name for every death ive died
is life again
yes he knows He knows / He knows/ He knows
I must have what I belong to/ he said
He said/ he knows/ he said /he knows
I could feel you shadow me /touch my face
like the peppermint breath of god /It was cool
but it had no place /to rest its grace/ when it came
and in the strange light/ of my youth burning /my spirit turning
I crossed a bridge/ to the highway /but I lost you there
I waved my arms /but you were nowhere
And I searched the streets / I searched the woods
I searched the bottom of a well/ were all my wishes stood
I searched the fog /I searched the dream
But I couldn’t find the one/the one who remembered me
Oh the useless things /I cling to /in the mist of change
and what sustains a girl /when there's nothing in her world
defending/ her rainbow /And all my honesty /and my sincerity
became like crippled feet /stumbling over me
and I started saying Im sorry / Im sorry all the time
I’m sorry I thought I had a right/ to demand back what was mine
And I searched the streets
I searched the woods
I searched the bottom of the well/ were all my wishes stood
I searched in the fog/ and I searched the dream
But I couldn’t find the one/ the one who remembered me
Oh im sorry for saying what I think is true
And Im sorry for asking why you do what you do
and im sorry for thinking you might do what you say
and im sorry I thought I deserved to ask anyway
and im sorry for taking up so much room when I cry
and im sorry I didn't shut my mouth when you lied
and I’m sorry I didn’t see that here is not where I belong
and im sorry it took me forty years to long
and I got so many sorrys/ slamming through my door
my rooms all jammed and I cant find the windows no more
I got so many sorrys/ hanging out my window pane
all the neighbors down there/ think im a woman insane
but I searched the streets
and I searched the woods
and I searched the bottom of the well/ were all my wishes stood
I searched the fog/ and I searched the dream
Until I finally found the one/ the who remembered me
La la la la la
La la la - la la
La la la - la la
La la la - la la
I I I I I
am a woman/ with no more apologies
I I I I I have beaten my heart to death with these
I I I I I am a woman/ with no more apologies
The week I was waiting for you to be born
I went down to the river to be all alone
The water was stormy dark and so still
And it held so much just like i did
And I walked by the water for miles that day
Silenced by the questions that wouldn’t go away
And not one single answer could be found
But being by the river felt like one some how
And I dreamt that I left you behind in a church
On a wet lonely road and I
Thundered through the night but nobody heard
No nobody heard
the tides
As they shifted inside
and someone unknown
gave back a warmth so much greater than my own
On the day of the night that you were born
I went down to the water to be all alone
The wind rubbed the river like an old guitar string
I felt my heart fastening to every falling thing
And all this mother love
Where will I find enough for the both of us
And not one single answer could be found
But being by the river felt like one some how
And I dreamt that I left you behind in a church
On a wet lonely road and I
Thundered through the night but nobody heard
No nobody heard
the tides
As they shifted inside
and someone unknown
gave back a warmth so much greater than my own
Do you like what your doing
Would you do it some more
Or did you ever ask yourself
What am i doing this for
And if you did - did it make sense
did it make any sense at all
I don’t know but looks like summers turned to fall
Do you like who you married
can you still look in his eyes
and do you love who you are with him or
does he shut you down each time
you feel real needy tired or confused
I don’t know but it looks like these falling leaves do
The leaves believe
so they let go
such letting go is love
and such letting love is faith
and such faith is grace
and such grace is god ah ah
Do you believe
oh do you believe like the leaves
and in the light the shadow weaves
do you believe
Have you found that one good friend
the one who loves
the one who is there for you
no matter how bad things are
I don’t know what you tell yourself about yourself but I do
believe these leaves are falling for you
The leaves believe
so they let go
such letting go is love
and such letting love is faith
and such faith is grace
and such grace is god ah ah
Do you believe
oh do you believe like the leaves
and in the light the shadow weaves
do you believe
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I don’t know what you tell yourself about yourself but I do
believe these leaves are falling for you
The leaves believe
so they let go
such letting go is love
and such letting love is faith
and such faith is grace
and such grace is god ah ah
Do you believe
oh do you believe like the leaves
and in the light the shadow weaves
do you believe
oh come on and sing with me
cause I believe in the leaves
do you believe
They place a baby in my arms
They said his mother disappeared last night after he was born
They called him Mr. Brown
They said he’s struggling with whatever she was on
And he shuddered through and through the way those bird like creatures do /when reaching for a sliver of life
He was so very small but much more a cathedral, which all my buried light was passing through
I held this baby in my arms
The clap and thunder of his cry echoed through me all night long
Little Mr. Brown
Born with no name and no mother to calm him down
So for thirty bittersweet days I show up at this place/ and I rest his tender check upon my face
And I paved a pray around him with every song I knew /and I grew and grew desperately full
I got to take this baby home with me/ I said as I grabbed the strong hand of a woman we all called grandma Andy/ and she said go downstairs child and talk to somebody/ and so I raced down those dirty sky blue halls/ and the woman from the agency she was in but she was on a call and I/ paced back and forth like a panther surrounded by these dim lit walls waiting for an answer/ and then she finally opened the door and she said come in, sit down/ are you here regarding our little guy Mr. Brown/ well I am sorry he’s been placed a family’s been found/ but if you put all your information down I’ll see what I can do/but you should know something sweetheart in this system /no one gets to pick and choose
I held this baby in my arms
A woman walked into the room whom I had never seen before/ she said its time for him to go
I give the two of you a minute more alone
And I shuddered through and through the way those bird like creatures do when reaching for a sliver of life
He was so very small but much more a cathedral, which all my buried light was passing through
She took the baby from my arms/she walked him over to the table and removed what he had on/ little Mr. Brown/ she dressed him up in some worn out yellow hand-me-down
And I wandered home slowly on that silvery afternoon
And I remember the wind breezing a minor tune
I was searching for a handle but there were none around/the day I let go of Mr. brown
Its dusk outside
My baby sleeps a sleep so sweetly in my arms
I watch the sky
And these strange dark birds flying nearby
I can’t get off of this
The way you spit my name like it was dirty water
No one to talk to
Cause their all your prisoners too
But I tried many times many ways many days
so afraid I'd be stained by your fate by your name
had I known had I knew trying to get it right with you
Would never take away my own poverty
There you go/ throwing a lighted match on to gasoline
Leaving nothing but ash/ to show for what you mean
But I think you mean to love me
oh And there you go/ with your firestorm burning our whole house down
Till the courage I earned is nowhere to be found
And I need to get away from you
No matter what I do
All you see in me is what you hate in you
So I press my self against the wall
like a shadow slipping away
and I know really well all the bribes and the spells to relieve all the hell of uncertainty
Had I known had I knew trying to get it right with you would never take away my own poverty
There you go/ throwing a lighted match on to gasoline
Leaving nothing but ash/ to show for what you mean
But I think you mean to love me
And there you go/ with your firestorm burning our whole house down
Till the courage I earned/ is nowhere to be found
And I need to get away from you
And im-thinking bout what you said
And those strange dark birds flying overhead
And they fly and they fly and they circle the sky exhausted
Well hey/ somebody got to lay them to rest
Well come on/ somebody got to care enough to lay them to rest
Year after year what you did what you said and im afraid I will lose before I get out of bed and I pretend I don’t see the dissention ive been fed and I am pressured to be silent while im busting out of my head
But I am but i am rising from the dead
And I am I am dancing on my head
There you go throwing a lighted match on to gasoline
Leaving nothing but ash to show for what you mean
But I think you mean to love me
There you go with your firestorm
burning our whole house down
till the courage I earned
is nowhere to be found
but I think you mean to love me
There you go
throwing a lighted match to gasoline
oh and then there you go
throwing a lighted match to gasoline
oh and then there you go
throwing a lighted match to gasoline
Laurie and me/ we used to cruz the town/ sailing our dreams around/ like magic wings
Oh we were young and wild /and we knew inside /we had to find/ the kind of life that would set our spirits free
I still remember/ her laughter/ and the way it washed over me
I still remember/ the fragile grip of her need
Laurie’s father left when we were ten/ never saw him again/ he was gone /like the wind/
he left her with /a pocket filled of loneliness /and mother who drove herself/ to hell/ in a cheap bottle of gin
Oh he was gone/ he took everything /and his absence/ change her for a while
see Laurie/ learned much too young/ what it was
/ to be left behind
Laurie Laurie laurieeee
Laurie Laurie laurieeee
Laurie always seem to me /as beautiful and free/ as a sea bird /in the autumn sky
And I watched how she made men go wild/ she'd turn their eyes into a fire that burned /long after she took flight
Oh she'd be gone
just like the wind
and her laughter
trailed them for miles
/see any man/ who loved Laurie
would learn what it was to be left behind
Laurie Laurie laurieeee
Laurie Laurie laurieeee
Your always leaving the one/ who loves/ who loves you
Laurie your always leaving the one/ who loves/ who loves you
Laurie and me we parted ways/ after years of promise made/ she was gone like the wind/ off to some world i would no nothing of/ the dreams she dreamed /her want for love
but thats just how it is
oh she was gone / she took everything/ and her absence/ changed me for a while/ oh but thank god for Laurie
I learned what it was to be left behind
i went to gods house/ pregnant
i whispered in his ear
for the love of mercy help me
but god did not appear
then i realized only time
would take away my pain
and i was left with the choice i made
so i went to gods house to sing
and i chanted loud and clear
and i thought about many things
and how time moves so slowly when time must heal
i went to gods house
pronounced the ancient language word for word
until my heart grew thankful and i felt release
and tried to be devoted grateful human being
and i went to gods house to sing
and i chanted loud and clear
and i thought about many things
and how time moves so slowly when time must heal
and my innocence is splendor
im corrupt to the bone
but it gives me strength to remember
in gods house i am not alone
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la da da da da da
la da da da da da
la da da da da da
and i go to gods house to sing
so i never forget where i come from and who i truly am
yeah i go to gods house to sing so i never never forget
where i come from and who i am
la da da da da da
la da da da da da
la da da da da da
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and i sing / to keep on remembering
yes i sing /to keep on remembering
la da da da da da
la da da da da da
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la da da da da da
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